The Details of Surgery

I have been given a time for surgery now. The surgery itself is not until 11:20 in the morning but I need to be at the hospital by 8:20.  By friend from work and her mother are bringing me to help keep me level before going in.  I'm worried I'll spaz out and have a breakdown in the middle of the hospital if I have to go alone. Dean is unable to go with me in the morning but will come visit after the surgery and will come get me at the hospital on Friday when I am released. My mother is also coming to town on Friday to help out on the weekend.  

I am worried about the pain afterwards and the lack of mobility after the surgery. I keep hearing   that I won't be able to move my arms at all and that terrifies me. I know if I push myself to hard to begin with my healing will be slow, but I also know that if I don't push myself a little I'll have a harder time getting going again. 

I am also concerned about my body image following the surgery. My tits have been a huge part of who I am for so long.  I developed early and have always had large breasts.  My grade 9 I was wearing a D cup, by grade 12 a DD or E, now I'm in an H cup at 25.  It's hard to dress a body with disproportionally large breasts, either you wear clothes to big for the rest of you, so that it looks like your wearing a tent, or you show a lot of cleavage. I usually opt for the cleavage.  I'm not exactly little to begin with and baggy clothes that fit fit my chest can make me look a lot heavier than I already am. I don't need that. I have adopted the attitude of "if you don't like them, don't look at them".  Sometimes I get evil eye, but that I can laugh off.  Comments about my weight I can't.

The surgery involves a breast lift and for the first time in a long time I have perky breasts that do not need to be caged constantly to avoid putting someones eye out. I have been buying shirts and looking at sun  dresses that will suit my body shape, but since I don't know exactly what I will look like it's hard to justify the purchases.
 
I will try and get photos before and after of me in the same t-shirt for comparison purposes.